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One Thing You Need To Stop Doing

So there is no one answer to that question.  There are probably dozens or hundreds of things that I need to stop doing.  However, one of the major things that I need to stop doing is stop doubting myself.

I, like many people, am a huge self doubter.  Not about everything, mind you, but about a lot of things.  One of the main things that has always been said about me is that I need to have more confidence.  That's a tough thing to do.

You may ask why is that so hard?  It's simple.  You can't build something up when you have nothing to build with.  If I asked you to build a house with nothing, how far would you get?  Not really far.  When I don't have a lot to help build my confidence up, it's rather hard to do so.

Now, I do have confidence in some things that I do.  I wouldn't be able to do my job or even talk about what I do without having some confidence in my job.  I'm not the greatest/best at what I do, but I'm competent at it and am able to learn new things when I need to (which is all the time).

That's one thing, but there are a lot of things I'm great at doubting myself at.  When it comes to relationships the confidence level is at 0.  In some weird way I could say I don't doubt myself in it because I'm sure that I'll always be alone.  Live has taught me so, so there's very little doubt in that.

The biggest thing with self doubt is also trying to fight anxiety.  It's a big weight that just adds on to the doubt.  It's not there to help in any way, only hurt.  But at least understanding what it is gives a little leg up.

So, it's a thing in a list of many.  If I could stop doing that one thing it would probably help a lot.  It's hard to destroy that doubt.  I honestly don't think it's even possible.  See there's that doubt again.

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