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Remembering To Speak

Went to a friends birthday celebration today and remembered how to talk to people.  This might sound silly, but when you haven't talked to some people in a long time it's something that doesn't come easy.

For some reason though it was easy today.  Some of the people I was talking to were those that I've talked to a lot in the past.  Some I had never talked to before, but was still able to converse better than I normally do.

The one thing that I finally got to do was flip the switch on all the filters that I normally put on.  I was able to not only keep up, but maybe push further than the person I was talking with.  It's something that I haven't done in awhile.  Living in a world where most of the people I interact with I have to be careful with what I say, this was actually a huge relief.

When you have to watch what you say all the time, it gets hard to ever let it out when there is no one to let it out to.  Remembering that my mind can not only go that far, but that sometimes it's just fun to say stupid shit.  Sometimes you just need to let that stuff out.

It's not a matter of story feelings or anything like that.  It's just the pure joy of having a conversation where you don't have to worry about what you say.  I don't get that opportunity very often, or even at all these days.  I miss those times.  In fact that last time I remembered being able to do that was highschool.  That's quite a bit of time ago.

Hopefully the next time isn't that far away.  I kind of enjoyed being able to just say shit that was on my mind.  It felt good.  It felt refreshing.  It felt needed.

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